ReCruit MerCedeez

hey guyz

2004-04-13T16:04:56Z

well MERCEDEEZ IS BACK!!!
umm....wow...i forget how to make words bold again....?

ne wayz, thanx to everyone who kept me on their list. =)
SO MUCH DRAMA AND SHIT had been happenin while i was gone and i bet some of you guys felt or feel the same way. yea...i read some of you guyz' entries.

well HOW IS EVERYONE??? GOOD BAD DEPRESSED DESPERATE DEAD ?
i'm on my spring break. so far it's ok...was in a car accident last friday. hope i'm ok, goin to a chiropractic later on.

well i hope i'll be on here more often

luv you guyz mucho!
*mwhaz*

....=/

2003-11-01T19:58:10Z

uhhh....hello?!!!!

summer, go away please!!!

2003-09-13T00:24:22Z

Well...technically, summer isnt offically over...because it's still so damn hott and i hate it!! I cant stand extremely hot weather at all. I feel like i'm goin to suffocate. =/

Anywayz, school isn't that bad after all but the first couple of days were. I hated every single class that i got. But now...i'm meeting lotz of cool people so itz all worthwhile. I need to improve my social skills anyways.

EWWWW whatz that drippin down my neck?? oh...thatz just my sweat! =D

heyyyy

2003-09-07T19:53:16Z

Anyone have friendster????
I need friends on there...i'm sucha loner!! lol =(
Well if u guyz dont know what it is..it's a site where u get to meet new ppl. U add a friend and u can see their friends and add them and so on.
So yea... go to http://www.friendster.com to sign up if u havent already. Let me kno when u have so i can add you to my buddylist!!

Thnx!!!!!

blehhh

2003-09-06T06:25:56Z

Life + School SUCKS DONKEY NUTS!!
I'm on an emotional roller coaster ride right now and i dont know why. Man...it sucks. It really does. I just hope I won't lose my sanity any time soon & end up in the funny farm.

Oh...livejournal changed a bit...
ummm why are some of my friends in bold in my user info?? what's that supposed to mean?

mercedeez @ 2003-08-31T17:26:00

2003-09-01T00:28:58Z

I just downloaded MSN messenger...does anyone have it?? If so...wanna be buddies, huh huh??? *nudges you* c'mon u know u want to!!! =P
JUst comment with your sign-on name here. =)

mineS is gurlaktic@hotmail.com.

just to let you know....

2003-08-31T18:26:22Z

Although i don't have a "friends-only" journal, i still made a "friends" cut. So now i'm down to 85 friends...it's ok though. I'm not gonna trip about it b/c i'd rather have less friends than more friends on my list. I just feel like i have a better bond with the ones staying than the ones that are not.
So if you're wondering why i cut you. here's some reasons:

- you didnt update for a LONG ass time

-you have a slash thru your name..i'm assuming you deleted your journal..?

-you a type a long ass entry about what you only did that day and the previous days...(i thought this one through. I know some of you do this, so i only cut the ones that constantly talked about what they bought during their shopping trip and etc..) Sorry, to be truthfully honest, i tend to skip those kind of entries...

Oh yea...i didnt really care if you comment A LOT, just as long as you comment once in awhile,i kept u.

So for the ppl who were cut, you can find the reasons from above that you can relate to the most.
But if u think i made a mistake please feel free to let me know and i just might add ya back ;)

So if u stayed...consider yourself, special. =) I very much loook forward to reading your entries when i come online...or i just love the comments that you leave me & vice-versa ...or maybe i just really dig your personality...
whatever the reason, you guys are the ones that i really care about. Yea...sorry but i'm not gonna go on with the mushy stufff...haha

*mwhaz*

#1 pet peeve

2003-08-30T17:44:51Z

I hate perverted people!!! Especially the ones that tend to ask you the same questions over and over again
To all you perverts out there I'm not going to give you my Phone Number so we can have phone sex!!!! Get a life!!!!!You know who u are!!! (i know there aren't any on my lj list)

I can't stand liars and perverts................especially PERVERTS that LIE thats the worse combination!!!!!

The #2 frequently asked question,
Sup girl can I get ur number?

Its 555-5555,can't wait to hear from you!!

Are you a virgin?

None of your business pervert!!!

What are your measurements?

You got a tape measure for me pervert?

Have anymore questions feel free to ask.

There are no perverted questions just perverted people!!!!

sorry, i just had to get that out.

i should update more often

2003-08-28T06:33:36Z

oOOOOh weeeeeeeeeeee guess who's back...back again...
Hey y'all...whatz up wit it?? ahahaha. Damn...i'm so damn hyper toniiiiite. And no i aint drunk or hiiiigh...sheesh what kinda person would i be if i did those types of things? Not a really good person, i believe!!! blahhhhhh
Yea..well me and Cassy(taylor's model gf) are hitting it off pretty well. She's the illest lil mami. haha.
Things arrren't so bad for now...but i bet it'll get a lot worse later on.
What's funny is that i tell ppl that things will be better for them down the road...but the sad part is...i cant advise myself of the same thing.
It's about believing...maybe it's time for me to start believing and seeing the positive perspective instead of the negative. For every situation, there's always a solution and itz only up to me to find it.
Well one thing i do regret is..saying how no one understands me and all that crap when there are tons of ppl out there who can totally relate to me.
So everyone..if ur ever feelin like your in the dumps and that u feel like your the only one going thru this... your not. There are plenty of people out there going through the same thing you are and dont continue to mope about it b/c if u tell someone how u feel, you'll have a better chance at regaining your old self in no time.
That's all i have to say tonite. I'm beat..so i'm gonna go crash. Nite y'all.

Dammit!

2003-08-22T05:24:40Z

HOW CAN I FOCKIN FORGET?!
1 more week till school starts!! *smacks head* I totally forgot...this summer was wayyyyy too short for me. Dont you guys think?! One thing i'm really gonna hate is having to wake up early in the morning once again... *sighs*
So when do y'all start school? Or did u guys already...HA HA *points at you ppl* j/k j/k =)

OH yea...and ppl who r going out in the sun fora tan, DONT DO IT!
I mean..are you really willing to risk permanent skin damage for 1 lil tan? A tan is a sign of skin damage.. and you're only young for like 7 yrs of your life! Scary..ya, i kno.
But if u do, be smart & wear sunscreen. You will thank yourself later if you protect yourself now. I was stupid to even think of getting a tan in my backyard! *smacks head again* Wait..hold up..not only did i think about doing it...i actually did it!!! Worst of all...i iddnt even wear sunscreen!*smacks again for the 3rd time*
See ladies...i care about you. Your talking to your future cosmotologist here =) And i sure dont want to see any pics of you guys with wrinkles or skin cancer in the next few years!!
Yea..goodnite, sweets!
*mwhaz*

Scare the shit outta me

2003-08-22T05:09:05Z

Is anyone else superstitious???
I believe in all the weird stuff...lol i dunno why, it's just so intriguing to me.
I believe that there's another life out there based on the shows i see on tv and the stories I read. I remember, I used to get nightmares or I couldnt sleep right after I watched a UFO special on tv. But now when i see it, I only become curious & more curious.
I used to be scared of aliens trying to abduct me from my own bed but...i've forgotten about that. Since I never saw any strange sightings around my neighborhood, i'm ok.
Just recently, I saw a show about ghosts. And one story I remember most was a kid who was tormented in his room by a ghost that kept beating him...physically..i mean...he would wake up with bruises on his arms...and this had been going on ever since he was a kid. But now...he and his family moved...and i supposed the ghost moved on to the next victim...or maybe just disappeared for good.
THAT ONE SCARED THE HOLY COW OUTTA ME!! I couldnt sleep that night b/c i was afraid some ghost that i'm not related to appears & starts pounding me to death.
HOnestly, i'll tell u this, I'm scared of shadows. Even if it's one of my family members, I would think it was some kind of ghost lurking around my house. I'd prolly pass out if i saw one.

Umm..letz move on, shall we? =/
I made an effort with Taylor's gf today. I thought about it a lot. I mean i didnt want to put Taylor in a position where he had to choose between me & her. I knew if i did, he'd pull away from me and i couldnt deal with that...ever.
Actually as it turned out..she's not all that bad...once she puts away the makeup. I think Taylor convinced her to have a nice lil decent convo with me w/out the primping.
She's pretty nice, i suppose. She seems like a genuine person so to speak. She's really girly...it's not a criticism. I mean cant strengh and girly-ness harmoniously co-exist?! I mean...she's not an airhead at all like i thought when i first saw her. But hey, you know what they say, looks can be decieving.
Well tomorrow me & her are goin to do a little shopping. And plus she's going to take me to one of her photo shoots. I've always wanted to go to one..just to see what's it like. haha..wow..sounds like a start of a new friendship, huH? I would think so =)

Palo Alto is grr8. I mean the band. I can't get enough of their CD!
favorite songs:
-Fade out/in
-Breathe in ( i think some of y'all might have heard this 1)
-throwing stones
-what you are
-sleeping citizens

The Name Game

2003-08-18T20:12:43Z

I thought this was interesting. Itz Guy's Names and how they Rank.

Guaranteed Booty

Steven (Stephen is gay)
Mike (Michael: gay squared)

Guaranteed Devil Sex: because there's a H.A.F. (High *ss Factor)

John
Rick
Rich
Gary
Vic
Tony
Russ
Mick
Nick

Basic Rules:

If you use your full name: David, Daniel, Richard, Robert ...you're gay. If you use an initial: JR, PJ, BJ ...you're too cool to date. If you have a y, ey or ie at the end of your name, you're too young to fuck. Josh, Justin, Dustin, Luke, Jason ...to young to do anything with.

Guaranteed Cute Guys ...
Bryan
Jon
Dave
Dan
Peter
Jeff
Greg
Eric
Jon
Sean (though you're probably gay, you'll still get lots)
Jack
Sam
Ben
Mark
Scott
Paul
Chris

Guys we'll sleep with because the above are all going out with the cute girls

Bill
Bob
Tom
Alan
Ed
Ron
Don

Guaranteed Gay Guys ...

Sean
Adam
Ian
Julian
Tomas
Griffin
Bruce
Bart
Brad
Terry
Jay
Kyle
Kerry
Marc
Ken
Leslie
Barry
Joel/Noel
Dana
Charles
Matt
Todd
Garth

Guys we don't care about because we don't see you... you're vapor.

Craig
Andy
Kevin

Guys who just won't get any ...ever ...because in the throes of passion, no one wants to utter these names in breathy, breathy passion ...

Harv
Arnie
Ernie
George
Carl/Karl
Mel
Hank
Jerry
Herb
Ray
Dean
Marty
Charlie
Gene
Frank
Les
Chuck
Al
Harry
Stan
Lou
Vance
Lance
Dick
Neil

Make your own or use mines, either way it's amazing how seriously people take this. Quite entertaining actually. =)

sorry

2003-08-14T16:47:11Z

i dont have much time to comment this week coz i got an essay to do which is due this Friday..which is TOMORROW! OMG i did not realize that...wow this weekend went by fast! well yea i'm on my 2nd paragraph..i knooo...how funnnnn!! *sarcasm*
But dont be mad pplz! i love you and i'll promise to comment ASAP!

*mwhaz*

What's left if there's no one out there you can put your trust into?

2003-08-08T05:04:34Z

No one has ever accepted me for who i am.
I constantly wonder if there's anyone out there that undertands me.
I think my so-called "friends" are mean. They treat other people in a way that i would never treat anyone that way.
I'm tired of people who automatically thinks I'm a bitch b/c i dont talk to them. They assume I'm boring b/c i'm quiet. Well how the hell do they know that if they havent even talked to me or get to know me. They should stop assuming & come up & ask me. They dont know that i'm a fun person to hang out with, that i have a sense of humor, that i can be such a dork at times, or i'm playful. Hell, they dont even know what a great friend i can be. NO one has ever put their time aside to get to know the "real" me. NO one...and i learned to deal with it.

I was an outcast in my own group at school and i still am. NO one seemed to notice that i was gone, that i had walked off, leaving them behind. I dont care to be around people who dont care about me.
They ignore me...like i dont even exist. And the only time they even show up at my door is when they're in trouble. I was always the listener...i felt like i was restrained to voice out my own opinions and when i did, they'd pretend i never even spoke up.

Taylor is the only one that i can connect & bond with. I have a "real" friendship with him..and no one else and i like it that way.
But it seems as if lately, he's become distant & all b/c of that lil wrench.
I feel as tho i cant open up to him anymore like i used to w/out having him get on my throat. I want to tell him that lil bitch doesnt deserve a guy like him...and he freakin defends her?!
Omg..how long does he know her??? 2weeks?
Gawd..i feel like i'm tryin to get him to divorce her. *pukes*
I'm questioning our friendship. Is it over? Am i going to lose the one person who matters most to me in my whole life?

It seems like i'm better off alone. Without friends. Without anybody. It sucks to live a life where everybody is against you. It sucks even more when you put your trust in ONE person and that person stabs you in the back by switching over.
He wants me to get to know her better & see what a "great" person she really is. Well...SCREW THAT.
I lost him...i'm prolly never gonna get him back. I lost everything:
my pride,my confidence and everything else. I got nothin left.

I have no one. I dont have anyone to open up to. I never had. And i never will.
Itz one of those nights again...when i'm going to cry myself to sleep.

i need ideas

2003-08-04T05:54:18Z

Someday i am going to be rich & move to a place right by the ocean but will still be in California coz i love this state sooo much,ok?! haha
So i dont think it'll hurt if i start planning a lil early.
After i figure out what city I'm plannin on buyin the house, i'm goin to figure out what my dream house will look like ;)

So people if u can...name a few places in Southern California that you would wanna visit or if u live somewhere down there, tell me & maybe we can move in 2gether & party our asses off, no cops no parents just fun fun fun, baby!!
Like for example, i'm thinking of Orange County...i saw a few pics...and i fell in love....but i'm open to any other suggestions if u guys have any. =)

Well today, Taylor yelled at me for being so rude to his new gf. Sorry but i hate that bitch. I mean seriously..she's one from hell! When we were eating at the cafe, she constantly pulled out her compact mirror to beauty check herself for the millionth time!! WTf? Can we not have a decent convo w/out that damn mirror in front of yo face all the fuckin time?! She basically ignored every question i asked her. And i knew Taylor was aware of that but he just sat there & drooled over her "good looks."

So yea..i was pissed so i pushed my chair back almost knocking a waiter carryin a tray of food off balance(ooops?) & told Taylor..quite loudly in fact that i was leaving b/c i had better things to do than sit around & talk to a narcassist.
And as I expected the girl looked up at me with ????? written all over her face. Yea..didnt think you'd kno what the hell i was talkin bout, huh barbie?
Then Taylor attacks me?! I hate him so much ryte now..he had no right to yell at me "Your being so inconsiderate right now! Your only embarassing yourself! And those were his exact words.

I hate it when we fight. Taylor has been my one true friend throughout my life...i'm scared that i'm gonna lose him to some dumb bimbo who only praises the mirror & her good looks. I dont wanna see him turn into a lovesick puppy over someone like HER! I can't bear to see that.
I'm too pissed to cry. Sleep is all i got left in me.
Gnite y'all.
*mwhaz*

mercedeez @ 2003-07-31T15:12:00

2003-07-31T22:14:27Z

hey can anyone tell me how to make a collage of pics into one graphic...?
If u dont know what i mean, herez an example:

Is there a free trial program that i can use to do that?!
thanks!

What the fuck was he thinkin?!

2003-07-30T20:49:10Z

Zack from Paradise Hotel got voted off?! *dies* Ok...now there's no reason for me to watch the show no more.
But i must admit...Keith was good...he's playing the game more so than the rest of 'em when he chose Amy...i didnt expect that at all and i'm sure none of the gang saw that comin either.
But wow..i was hoping Zack would still be in the game till the end..he & amy were my favorite couple..even tho he yells @ her most of the time & blames her for not being there for him..but that was the only way he could communicate with her..to make her open up to him.
And during his final words, he said " OH KEITH WAS INTIMIDATED BY ME THAT IS WHY HE VOTED ME OFF"
haha..now dont give urself that much credit, Zack!
Sad to see him go...but itz a reality show...things are just startin to heat up.

Weather report: Thunder & lightning woke me up last nite...and i was thinkin...WTF?? Itz the end of July, for cryin out loud! What kind of weather is this?!
Hmmm..well the sky is openin up a lil...not a lot of sunshine just a gray overcast sky...

OH yes...and i have my workout planned...I just hope i dont get lazy. haha. But yea..itz time for me to whip into better shape & watch wat i eat coz i do tend to eat a lot but i dont burn off enough calories after. So i gotta change that...starting this Friday! August 1st-August31st. Thatz my goal for next month.
Too bad i dont have a high metabolism like my bro...that would be a miracle worker for my body... =D

Damn i hate telemarketers!! Fuckin annoyin as fuck to listen to their "businesslike" voices all the time!
Yea well i'll i'm out.
P E A C E

mercedeez @ 2003-07-29T16:08:00

2003-07-29T23:12:36Z

=P
I think I accomplished somethin.

I feel loved.

gotta make it short

2003-07-17T00:00:11Z

-found out that Kevyn is NOT at all what I've expected

-decided that if he wants to "hang out" wit me..like he said he would then he could drive down to disneyland & hang out with me there

-feels stupid for thinkin she had a chance wit this guy

-is not gonna hook up with any guyz over the summer b/c she knows they'll prolly screw her over...as always

-has learned that reading any novel has let her escaped mentally & has made her 4get all probs shez dealin with

-is hooked on Paradise Hotel and cannot miss tonite's episode. Finds it more interesting than any other reality based tv show.

-hates it when people like her uncle makes a big deal out of nothing esp. over appearance. LIke fuck that. No one tells me how i should look. Shit.

-wishes that there was someone out there who understands her and wouldnt have to hide the real her in order to feel "normal"

-reality check: Bad things happen to ppl who dont deserve it. All the time.

And finally, i prettified my journal. Check it out
Sunset Paradise

undecisive

2003-07-10T19:10:39Z

Hey y'all...I dont know if i should visit Kevyn. I mean i reaLLLY REALLLLLy like him but i dont know if i will when i see & talk to him in person.
I'm not an expert when it comes down to guyz, haha. Any advice?
And he really wants me to come down there & see him. And so do I.
Ahh..i am at a lost here....someone pleeeeeze make the decision for me.

Ok so the question for y'all is...Should I go & visit him?

YEs
or
No

What if he doesnt like me? What if hez not the same nice, funny, caring, sweet guy in real life than he is online?
What if hez just using me?
What if he makes me feel uncomfortable?
What if...What if...AHHHHHHH too many What ifs...
Well i still got...like 5 more wks to think about it. I still havent planned out what to do once i get there.

So yea...thanks for readin this stupid nonsense. LOVe y'all ;)

like whoa....

2003-07-07T20:51:46Z

Ok well remember the guy that i posted a picture of in my last entry?
Well...i'm goin down to Palm Springs to see him in August!!!!

Yah...i'm really enthusiastic bout it! haha =P Ahh i cant wait!!
So yea..i'm gonna go with my cousin..coz she wants to go 2 Disneyland. lol..i hope she'll bring a friend along coz i wanna spend my time with Kevyn alone if u kno what i mean. ;)

Wow..therez so many reasons why i wanna see him so badly..

He's sweet, caring, friendly,fun to talk to, funny,HOTT!
He's very ticklish like me!
He likes to cuddle. =P
I get butterflies in my stomach whenever he signs on.
He makes me smile.
He makes me HAPPY.(Somethin Darrell couldnt do)
And he told me this : "Imperfections,in my opinion...are what makes them beautiful." *melts*
And plus he's a Libra. Which means me & him are DEFINITELY compatible.

Damn, man...i wanna get freaky wit him!! hahaha j/k...or am I?! mwhahaha

Hmmm..dont know what else to say...but i think i'm in lovvvvvve ;)

i think i'm in love

2003-07-02T21:46:47Z

This would be Kevyn. I just met him today. He called me a "sweetie"
*swoons* And he plays guitar. And hez SINGLE!

Too bad he lives so damn far. i hope to "bumP" into him someday.

yeaaaa i'm here for an update..... ok that was gay...

2003-07-02T17:55:54Z

*smoochies to everyone*
Howz everyone's summer comin along?! Swell, i hope.
i got my report card & i did an overall good job!
My GPA was a 3.75. =) Good enough for me. hehe

Did anyone go see Charlie's Angels Full Throttle? Well i did & i thought..."hey, this was better than the first one." Prolly coz it was a whole lot funnier. And Bernie Mac was the new Bosley, Hez so goddamn funny! Well yea it was brainless entertainment for me & it kinda made me feel adventurous after it was over.

I dunno itz kinda weird that Demi Moore & Bruce Willis were in it..i mean..they gone out together & broke up recently.

Ok sorry...i know i dont work for Entertainment Tonight so i'll just stop.

I thought today was 4th of July coz i had a weird dream about it. Today feels weird..i dunno why, it just does for some strange reason.
I think itz coz my mom didnt nag for me to get up. I got to sleep till 10:05! That was the lastest.. but 9:00 is the latest according to my mom. *growls*

Hmm i dunno i think i'm gonna chill around the house..or maybe go to the beach later. Whatever fits my mood, right?
Gonna go comment. Love y'all! *mwahz*

mmm...get a load of him...

2003-06-26T20:49:14Z

Brad Pinkert is soooo fuckin hot! I wanna fuck him sooo fuckin badly! haha =P
There was a poster & bio of him on Cosmo Girl and i ripped it out!! I put one of his pictures on my locker & the full poster in my rooom.
His favorite book is...dun dun dun... THE BIBLE & his favorite movie is...Boogey Nights. oOOh
But OMG...he is a Christian with a Six Pack!!. haha..hez sooo damn FYNE.
Did anyone see America's Next Top Model?! Well he got to pose with the girls in Paris..! Shannon one of the finalists had seen him in Cosmo girl too & has been dreamin of meeting him.
Looks like her dream came true..i was jealous. Really. haha
And he has this sexxy accent tooo. *drools*
And she got to kiss him on his cheeks after dinner!! *dies*

Herez a pic of him with Elyse

"I didn't know whether to smile, whether to get red, whether to turn around and leave," Shannon said.

I'm already sweating just sitting here...him + the weather is enough heat combined. hah.
Ok well i'm gonna go out & get a tan. L8erz!

uh oh...

2003-06-24T17:00:34Z

Well at least it didnt say i'd die of knee surgery...haha =/

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